Working for the Mandroid
27 July 2014 @ 07:01 pm
I just watched the Q&A at Nerd HQ with Jared, Jensen, Misha, and Mark. OMG. That had to be the funniest hour I've had in a LONG time. It was horribly moderated, but man was it hilarious. I'm seriously a Mark Sheppard fan now. That man is amazing. I might want to stab Crowley with a fork, but the actor himself is lovely.

How is it I have no Crowley icon? Shameful.

Anyway, expect some thoughts on the Comic-Con panel and the Nerd HQ Q&A either tonight or tomorrow. I normally avoid spoilers, but it has been such a blast this weekend. So excited for SPN's return in the fall!
Current Mood: bouncybouncy
Working for the Mandroid
19 July 2014 @ 07:41 pm
So...I've been very unhappy with the direction Supernatural has taken over the past two seasons, namely Season 8 and 9, but despite my unhappiness, I just might be falling back in love with the show. I haven't talked about it much, but I'm about to now.

(Spoilers for through the end of Season 9 below.)

It's not so much the storyline - I think Carver does a better job at overall arcs than Gamble did, though Gamble was a master at characterization - but Carver's characterization has been horrible. Sam not looking for Dean, not even trying? I had no problem with him trying to start over and escape his pain. That is what Sam does. He runs away. I don't buy that he never looked. We saw that Dean was looking in Season 6. A throw away line or a flashback of Sam giving up would have done it for me. Then when Dean was super upset over the whole thing, they could have revealed that Sam had tried.

In Season 9, we had Sam possessed by Gadriel. Not a terrible idea, but poorly executed. Again, I had issues with Sam's characterization in that he just decided he wanted to live in the S8 finale when he and Dean had that great moment before the angels fell. And then all of a sudden he wants to die? I can't make sense of that. It was just a poor excuse to have Dean do whatever it takes to save Sam. Then, in the second half, when we had the cool Mark of Cain arc building up, the brothers acted like they couldn't stand each other. I didn't sign up to watch them be so...cold.

The show has fallen into this bad habit of manufacturing tension between Sam and Dean. Sam didn't look for Dean. Dean took away Sam's agency. But it's not just been Carver. With Gamble, we had Dean kill Amy behind Sam's back. We had Soulless!Sam, though that made more sense. Kripke did it too. The big problem is that as the series has aged, the tension has moved from something organic to inorganic. It doesn't work. Why not have a season with Sam embracing the Men of Letters and Dean more aligned with Hunters? We saw crazy MOL collector. Could Sam become THAT obsessed? You could easily use their different personalities to highlight this split and show how much stronger they are when they work together. This past season, the possessed!Sam could have opened up some interesting doors - even though I was sour on the idea because I prefer Dean aligned with heaven (I blame fanfic). Spending more time on Sam's awareness of Dean's descent and heck, even making Dean's unraveling a little more coherent would have worked.

Anyway, it sounds like I'm ranting. In many ways I am. This is my show. This, apparently, will always be my show, surpassing the love I've had for Star Wars and X-Files and SG-1 combined. So I've been upset when I see the potential wasted and I sit in front of the TV anxious what more damage will be done to the characters in the name of tension and drama.

But these past two months, I've been thinking about the remaining potential in the show. I think about how invested the cast and crew still are. I've thought about some of the valid problems I've had, and maybe the not so valid ones. I am not a writer on the show. I can't will the show to take the direction I want. I have to let go and just watch. I can't control everything.

I've been rewatching old episodes and remembering just how much I love the family themes in the show, the themes of sacrifice and love and doing the right thing. I really still do love this show and I'm excited for when Season 10 begins in October. Seriously, this new season could be amazing. Then again, I could be fooled again.

Do I think everything will be perfect? No. I've been burned too much by false hope before. But I still do have some hope. Cautious hope? Whatever happens, I know that this show will always have a place in my heart and that I won't give up on it until I have no more hope to spare.

Even if I am all alone.
Current Mood: determineddetermined
Working for the Mandroid
15 June 2014 @ 09:38 am
So wow. I have spent 2 years (more than that??) working on this one fanfic in my Playing the Angel series. I've been determined to finish and now I am almost there. I still have other stories in this series that I am determined to finish also, but no way can I take that long again. I'm just that stubborn. The reality is that life is busy and I am concentrating on my own original stuff for publication, so time is short everywhere. I admit it feels nice that the end is in sight for this fic, though.

Current Mood: determineddetermined
Working for the Mandroid
22 February 2014 @ 11:21 am
So errands are done early. Yay me!

I was about to settle in, relax, and get some writing and fun stuff done when I realized something was wrong with my LJ. Where are all my pretty gifs on the side of my LJ? What happened?

ETA: Whoa. So my whole scrapbook is borked. Most of my moodtheme is missing, all my gifs are gone, and half my art is gone. WTF?
Current Mood: aggravatedaggravated
Working for the Mandroid
01 January 2014 @ 11:36 pm
Wow. So this whole posting thing? Apparently gets worse every year.

Every year I pledge to change that. Every year I don't.

So this year I'm not pledging to post more or "get back on track." The truth is I rarely post here any more and I am so busy that I can't be fannish in the way I used to be. It's so much easier to post on Twitter and Facebook, both of which can cater to people who don't have time to write a long, thoughtful post.

Still, I have a certain bit of nostalgia for this place and I refuse to close it down. Naturally, any fanfic I write will be posted here, but there are also people on LJ that I care about, and miss very much, and there is always that part of me seeking deeper conversations.

Twitter and Facebook take care of some of my needs, but not those days where I need to have a nice conversation with people. And Tumblr? I loved it at first because, omg so many pretty gifts and art and other visual fun, but it's also full of anger and bitterness, and I find myself not enjoying it at all anymore. Being spread across various social media made me realize how much I miss how this place used to thrive.

Everything changes and people have splintered off to various different social media. Many of us are still here and have drifted, or have gone silent. For those who would like to use LJ more, why not? Whether we agree or see eye to eye isn't important. As long as we respect each other.

I'm creating a filter to actual use. (I've created several in the past to decide what to share with people, but this would be for reading.) Maybe a bunch of us can reconnect. If you want to be added let me know, though I already know many of you who I want to make sure I keep reading.

Just to give an update on what my interest are these days:

Overall, I'm trying hard to focus on my own fiction. I've cut down on TV and have been trying to read more. I also am interested in making bookmarks and steampunk jewelry, as well as getting back into art. I've done more gaming than I have in the recent past, and I've enjoyed going out with friends for the occasional dinner with drinks. Still love music of many flavors. Addicted to the podcast Night Vale. Of course, there is always my original writing, which is slow going but I refuse to abandon. When it comes to TV...

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Friending/Unfriending: My standard blather - Many of us have drifted apart and I won't be offended if you're one of those people who would like to go since we just failed to connect. You're welcome to stay, of course. I'm not cutting anyone right now, but you always have that out. Hope you'll stay, though!

Anyway, let's give this a go! I can't promise I'll post all the time, but I can at least make it meaningful :)
Current Mood: hopefulhopeful
Working for the Mandroid
16 August 2013 @ 09:58 pm
That is where my brain is right now.

Still obsessed with fic of the Supernatural variety, though I've been a little nostalgic for SG-1 lately. And Smallville. But currently, I've been spending some time working on my wing!fic series for SPN. The sad part is that I have most of the series planned out and I have fun with it. It gives me something to work on that's a bit stress free. I've just struggled with having the time. I'd say that I'm about 3/4 of the way through the current fic I'm writing in the series. If I'm lucky, I'll finish another scene tonight.

I'm about near the climax and then I'll have the wrap up scenes. As always, my philosophy on LJ is not to post it until it's finished or a couple of scenes away from completed. However, I'm not as anal about it on where I've posted a few chapters to see how it would look. I don't read WIPs myself, but if anyone is interested in the wing!fic universe, you can check out the first four chapters there:

No worries if you pass. I'll post it here for anyone interested when it's done anyway. :)

As for my original stuff, I had a breakthrough this month and it's taken a new direction. The first time in a long time I feel like I know what I'm doing with it. It's a good feeling. It's hard to explain. but I think it's some kind of combo X-Files meets Warehouse 13 meets Supernatural. That's a guesstimate. Contemporary/urban fantasy is my main genre of writing. I tend to sway towards anything with a supernatural or paranormal flare. I'm interested to see where this rewrite takes me. I also need to work on some other works to send back to an editor interested in my stuff.

How goes the writing front with my writer friends?
Current Mood: curiouscurious
Working for the Mandroid
07 August 2013 @ 06:31 pm
So so close to finishing this fanfic I've worked on forever. So close I can taste it.

Knowing me, a bunch of surprise scenes will hit at the end. Gah.

Almost at the end. Almost.
Current Mood: creativecreative
Working for the Mandroid
29 July 2013 @ 03:48 pm
Overall, been kind of quiet because I am dealing with a pretty intense depressive episode. I'm in a place where I can't really talk about it, but for anyone who has gone through this, I'm sure you can understand how raw and painful it feels.

Just wanted to let you know why I am scarce.
Current Mood: depresseddepressed
Working for the Mandroid
26 June 2013 @ 02:36 pm
Old notebooks!

Purging today.Found one with Hebrew in it, back when I was trying to learn the language. That brought back some bad memories of professors who were cruel and arrogant so...gone! I'll try to learn the language another time.

Next I've found a writing notebook. SG-1! Ha, these are drafts of old stories. I bet I'll find SPN next...
Current Mood: quixoticquixotic
Working for the Mandroid
23 June 2013 @ 06:50 pm
Some time ago, I recall posting a tiny tiny excerpt from wing!fic to come. It's in one of my notebooks as well, back when I was using them, and now that I am trying to find it, I can't. So I come to handy LJ.

And I forgot to tag it.


I don't need it for the wing!fic I'm currently finishing, but I wanted to move it to a safer file.

This is what happens when you are not organized!
Current Mood: lazylazy