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19 February 2007 @ 10:49 am
SG-1 Fic: Old Wounds (Sam/Pete)  
This is a fic that I promised rowan_d. I'm still working on surreallis's fic, which has decided it wants to be longer than I want it to be. Bah. So for now, here's the Sam/Pete fic for rowan_d.


Title: Old Wounds
Author: Moonshayde
Season: Nine
Category: Ship, Angst
Spoilers: The Fourth Horseman
Pairing/Character: Sam/Pete
Summary: Sometimes all it takes are a few words to heal old wounds.
Warnings: none
Rating: PG

Disclaimer: Stargate, Stargate SG-1 and all of its characters, titles, names, and back-story are the property of MGM/UA, Double Secret Productions, Gekko Productions, SciFi Channel, and Showtime/Viacom. All other characters, the story idea and the story itself are the sole property of the author. This story cannot be printed anywhere without the sole permission of the author. Realize this is for entertainment purposes only; no financial gain or profit has been gained from this fiction. This story is not meant to be an infringement on the rights of the above-mentioned establishments


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Sam rubbed her hands together as she hovered by the hospital door. With the door opened a crack, she could only catch brief glimpses of the activity inside, something that just made the knot in Sam's stomach tighten even more. She caught sight of a nurse. A doctor. And more medical equipment than she would have ever expected.

She just wanted this to be over. All of this.

"Ma'am, you can come in now."

She nodded to the nurse, took a deep breath, and entered the room. Inside, she saw balloons, get well cards, and some flower arrangements, but overall, the room felt cold and lonely. Sam tore her gaze off the flowers, focusing on the hospital bed and the sad, still form that lie there.

Pete.

While Sam had mentally been preparing herself for this for days, the actual sight of Pete's withering form was too much. She brought her hand to her mouth and choked back the sob that threatened to escape from her lips.

He looked terrible, a mere shell of the man that she had once loved. Gone was the cheerful smile that used to greet her every morning. Gone was the light in his eyes that would brighten her days. Now, he was a mess a dark circles, pasty skin, and lackluster eyes.

Sam closed her eyes.

"Hey."

When she opened them, she found that she and Pete were alone. He watched her from his bed. "Now, I can't be that bad," he said.

She forced a quick smile, grabbing a chair to sit by his side. "No."

He let out a broken laugh. "Now, you're lying? This is why I always won at strip poker, you know."

Sam smiled at the brief memory, but the joy quickly faded as she continued to assess his condition. "Maybe I let you win."

"Sneaky," he said. "A man could grow to like that."

She couldn't help but chuckle at the comment. No matter how badly his body was broken, Pete was still in there. Sam just hoped it was enough.

She tucked her hair behind her ear, shaking off her growing insecurities as she got down to business. "The doctors say you're going to pull through. Luckily, they were able to administer a cure in time."

"Cure." He nodded and stared at her. "It's some alien thing, right?"

"Pete…"

"I mean, it has to be," he said. "You wouldn't be here otherwise."

Sam swallowed hard and looked at her hands. She felt a spark of anger over Pete's accusation, but also a twinge of guilt. She bit her lips and closed her eyes.

She hadn't wanted to end like it did. The last thing she wanted to do was to hurt Pete. She didn't want to hurt anyone, yet she always did somehow.

"We keep sidestepping it, Sam."

She gazed up at him. "I know."

"Was it so terrible--?"

"No." She thought of all the happy mornings on her porch, the dinners, the movies, just unwinding in her home, the two of them alone, together. "No," she said again. "It was great."

He frowned. "Then, why?"

Her thoughts turned to the house. She saw herself sitting inside, gazing out the window, as she sat alone, dog by her feet, baby napping in the bedroom. She saw herself touch the windowpane, trying to reach the stars that were just out of her grasp.

"I just…wasn't ready for that kind of life," she said, gazing at him directly. "I'm not ready for that kind of life. I couldn't do that to either of us."

"Why not just tell me?" he asked, his voice hard. "Why, for once, couldn't you just tell me? You keep everything bottled up and I—" He looked away and sighed. "I thought we were great together."

Sam wiped away a tear. She cleared her throat, trying to chase away the pain that had settled in her chest. Hesitating only briefly, Sam reached over and grabbed his hand. When he turned to her with surprised, she squeezed his fingers.

"I didn't come here just on business," she said.

Pete stared at her. "No?"

She shook her head. "Pete, things…the way it ended, we…and now…" She took a swallow of air and brought her chin up a little higher. "I just wanted to see you again."

He squeezed her hand in return. "I've been wanting to see you, too." He paused, as if gauging her reaction. Then, he took a deep breath, his gaze never wavering. "Maybe we could see more of each other?"

Sam found herself smiling. "I'd like that." And when she said those words, she didn't realize just how much she met it. She slid her chair closer to his bed, her smile breaking into a full grin. "I'd like that a lot."
 
 
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Fig Newton: samsg_fignewton on February 19th, 2007 04:19 pm (UTC)
So how come you can give Sam more emotional maturity in one short fic than TPTB could give her in Season 7-8?

That's a nice twist, with Pete getting infected with the Prior Plague. And good for Sam for having the courage to keep trying. I always thought Pete really got a bum rap.
Working for the Mandroid: Boysmoonshayde on February 19th, 2007 04:29 pm (UTC)
I like to think that after all the emotional turmoil and insecurities Sam went through during S7-8, that she gained some perspective and maturity in S9 and S10. I think the time away from the SGC, helping out Cassie, work at Area 51, all after breaking up with Pete and her dad's death really made her think. The Sam we've seen since then seems to be much more comfortable with herself.

So whether after this fic people see them get back together or just become friends is up to them. But I think they deserve a better ending (at least in fanfic land) than what happened in S8.
beanpotbeanpot on February 19th, 2007 08:20 pm (UTC)
Oh how perfectly lovely. I always liked Pete - he adored Sam and what woman doesn't want that. Very nice touch giving him the Prior's plague. I also like your theory on why she does seem more self assured these past two seasons - certainly makes sense to me!
Working for the Mandroid: Silencemoonshayde on February 19th, 2007 11:01 pm (UTC)
Thanks! I'm glad you liked it!
Traycer: Samtraycer_ on February 19th, 2007 10:34 pm (UTC)
I loved how this fic ended, on a hopeful note which made room for a deep friendship between Sam and Pete.

"She saw herself touch the windowpane, trying to reach the stars that were just out of her grasp."

That has got to be the most heartbreaking line that I have ever read. :) Your words made it even easier to see why Sam did what she did, and how hard it must have been for her to deal with the actual breakup.

Thank you for such a beautiful story!!
Working for the Mandroid: Unprotectedmoonshayde on February 19th, 2007 11:00 pm (UTC)
Oh thanks! I'm glad that you enjoyed it. And I'm also glad that my fave line made an impact :)

I think Sam has matured emotionally since when she was in her relationship with Pete. And I don't think she was ready for what Pete wanted. It's a shame they couldn't have talked about it.

But such is the way of drama ;)

Btw, I see you're a Jack fan. I'm always up for more Jack fans. (Though, I adore all the characters.) Mind if I friend you?

Traycer: happytraycer_ on February 19th, 2007 11:33 pm (UTC)
That whole paragraph made an impact on me!! It spoke volumes on what Sam wanted out of life, the pros and the cons, but it was the visual of her reaching for something she would have had to give up that still sends chills down my spine every time I read it. :)

I'm honored that you want to friend me, and also glad, because I was just trying to get up the nerve to friend you, hoping you wouldn't come after me with a stick or something if I did. :)
Working for the Mandroid: Familymoonshayde on February 20th, 2007 12:50 am (UTC)
Aw, thanks. And heh, I don't bite ;) Most people are open to friending so it never hurts to ask! And I gathered you liked the characters from your LJ so that's always a good thing.
Library Alterna-Chick ;): Sam/Pete-mntsshadowolfjedishadowolf on February 20th, 2007 12:44 am (UTC)
*melts* love this!
love how you've got her owning up to things and him showing his anger and hurt, but also being open and honest about wanting to see her again too. would love to see more. :)
Working for the Mandroid: Teammoonshayde on February 20th, 2007 12:51 am (UTC)
Heh heh. I don't know if I can write another Sam/Pete story. (I don't get many ideas.) But thank you very much for the encouragement.
ridin' the star mile: i seestargazercmc on February 20th, 2007 12:44 am (UTC)
Oh, now see? This is fantastic, and heartbreaking and hopeful, all at the same time. Are you gonna post it to duckwine?
Working for the Mandroid: Strength (Sam)moonshayde on February 20th, 2007 12:50 am (UTC)
Thanks! And yes, I already did :)
Rowan Darkstar: Sam and Pete - Infirmary Kissrowan_d on February 20th, 2007 04:21 pm (UTC)
GAH!! SAM/PETE TO START MY DAY!!!!!!:):):) ::tackle hugs::

I love this!! And it's actually freakishly similar to the opening I have written of the longish Sam/Pete fic I'm working on.:D (Thankfully, that part of mine is already pretty fully written, so no problem with getting the two mixed up.:)) This was really beautiful and totally believable. That image of her looking out at the stars through the glass is just gorgeous.

Thank you!!:)
Working for the Mandroid: Boysmoonshayde on February 21st, 2007 02:19 am (UTC)
Freakishly similar, eh? Does your Pete get the Prior Plague too? And here I thought I was original! Or maybe great minds think alike...

I'm glad that you liked it. It's like the one idea I've ever gotten for them *sniff* but now it's done. I'm glad that it was good enough to appease. And I just can never imagine Sam quiting reaching for the stars ;)

Now, I need to seriously get off my butt and write surreallis's angsty "aliens made them do it" Sam/Daniel fic before she starts to get a complex. I've been promising that for *mumbles* months.
Rowan Darkstar: Sam and Pete - Solidity of Yourowan_d on February 21st, 2007 02:44 am (UTC)
Freakishly similar, eh? Does your Pete get the Prior Plague too? And here I thought I was original! Or maybe great minds think alike...

No, no, no Prior Plague in mine, your originality is intact! Gunshot wound. There's just a very similar hospital/coming together scene.:)

I'm glad that you liked it. It's like the one idea I've ever gotten for them *sniff* but now it's done.

There will be more! I have faith!:D

I'm glad that it was good enough to appease. And I just can never imagine Sam quiting reaching for the stars ;)

Indeed.:) Which is inevitably the biggest problem with Sam/Jack in the practical sense. Fishing is fun for her for a weekend, but after that...it's not an end goal for her like it is for Jack at this point...

Now, I need to seriously get off my butt and write surrealphantast's angsty "aliens made them do it" Sam/Daniel fic before she starts to get a complex. I've been promising that for *mumbles* months

I have you beat on stuff I owe people.;) However, yes, you should do that, 'cause I want to read it.
Working for the Mandroid: Patternsmoonshayde on February 21st, 2007 02:59 am (UTC)
He got shot! Aw. Poor Pete. Sounds interesting though. I'd read it.

Which is inevitably the biggest problem with Sam/Jack in the practical sense. Fishing is fun for her for a weekend, but after that...it's not an end goal for her like it is for Jack at this point...

Well, if I take my denial glasses off for a second and talk about Sam/Jack ship...This is one of the problems I see with their pairing. They have feelings for each other, but Jack would happily like to do nothing but fish and the like -- though I think he'd get an itch to do something after awhile -- whereas Sam needs to be a part of something. Like Daniel she is always yearning, but they just seek different things. In new Order, Fifth could easily have been Jack instead of Pete and Sam still wouldn't have bought it. If you see Sam and Jack as a couple, it's one of those sad but realistic moments where you have two people who care about each other, but who's wants and desires don't match all the time. Which I see as a problem that Sam and Pete were having. Two people who cared but just wanted different things out of life at that particular moment.
Because it's all about the writing: abyssbluecove on February 21st, 2007 05:16 pm (UTC)
Stumbled on this story, and just wanted to let you know how much I like it. Although I'm not a big Sam/Pete shipper, I do think the series gave them a raw deal, especially Pete. This gives us a better feeling of closure (or, perhaps, new beginnings) than the show's writers ever did. Nice job!
Working for the Mandroid: Corporalmoonshayde on February 21st, 2007 05:25 pm (UTC)
Oh thanks! I agree. I don't like the way TPTB handled it, but that's the way it goes. Though, honestly, I don't really ship anyone on the show. But I like to play with different ideas as they come to me in the fandom.