Is it perfect? No, of course not. But I'm having a blast and that is all that is important. (ME ME ME ME ME.)
You know, I can't really even explain it. I'm a big fan of monsters. I've always loved religious supernatural stories. I love mythology. Angels and demons. So, naturally I love the show as a whole. S1 and S2 were my fave, though I think some of the big stand out episodes happened later in the series. S3 was the weakest, but also has a very special place for me, so I defend it like whoa.
But this year is a little different somehow. I think part of it has to do with a fresh start. We're in a new story arc, but aside from a few bumps, feels like the natural extension of the story. I know we've done the "Sam is different" thing before, but I've really stopped being overly bothered by that sort of thing. I want SAM back, but they'll fix him. Maybe not as quickly as I would like, but I know the formula by now.
And I still love Dean to pieces. And of course there's Cas and Bobby!
And Mitch Pileggi. Are you kidding me? He's freakin' Walter Skinner! (LOL)
But I feel free. I don't turn on the TV and panic over whether something will happen to make me hate the show. I don't get caught in the Sam vs. Dean battles. I still love Jo and ship Dean/Jo, while not minding Dean/Lisa. I stay out of the online battles and just work on my fic and art. I don't worry over characterization. I talk about it, and I will say things like, he better not do that or I'll be so mad!!! But I only half-mean what I say. I'm excited to sit down and spend an hour watching my fave show.
I wouldn't say I am no longer obsessive because I totally am. I just reached a point where if something doesn't go my way, I'll just write it in my own stories. I'll enjoy what I have. It's not my story and I can't control it. If I don't like something, I don't like it. If I do, yay! This is something I struggled to do with SG-1. It is something I struggled with X-Files near the end. It was something I struggled with Smallville for a while, but has since changed.
(BTW, Smallville totally ROCKS this season. Every week I am filled with a double shot of awesome. Next week is their 200th! Tune in!!!!!)
I'm not miserable or filed with dread. I'm just having fun.
I'm past the drama and the negativity. meg_tdj and I chat and squee and just have a darn good time.
I'm not trying to jinx anything, but I figure it's okay for me to publicly squee every once in a while ;)