I'm trying to start fresh. See, I write best when I am in a creative environment. Makes sense right? I wrote so much fanfic back in the day because I was immersed in fandom. With my original stuff, I have been networking and meeting with creative people to help feed the creative juices and because I like to be near creative people.
The place I was going for my writing fix is not working, so I had to say goodbye. I'm not sure how I feel about that, but I think it was the right decision. I have my close friends who, whether they write or not, are always there by my side. Maybe I don't tap into that resource enough because I'm afraid I'll be a pain. It's a fine line. But that's not the problem. This place was supposed to be welcoming to all writers and in the end, I felt as alone as when I started. It's been stifling my creativity--among other things--and if I want to move forward, I have surround myself with people and places that are conductive to my creativity and feeling good about myself. Drama and cliques are not it.
I'd thought of starting my own writing circle, either online or local, but that never works out. I don't have the time or focus to run a comm. (Been there, done that.) There was no local interest. Tried that already. Plus, trust in inherent in the system and that's very difficult to build.
So I am back to square one. Not necessarily a bad place to be. It's all about reframing myself and getting back on track.