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08 October 2012 @ 12:48 pm
I'm off-centered in all areas of my life right now, but I've been desperately trying to get a handle on the writing area. I haven't published anything in a while, and I feel like my momentum and motivation are dying.

I'm trying to start fresh. See, I write best when I am in a creative environment. Makes sense right? I wrote so much fanfic back in the day because I was immersed in fandom. With my original stuff, I have been networking and meeting with creative people to help feed the creative juices and because I like to be near creative people.

The place I was going for my writing fix is not working, so I had to say goodbye. I'm not sure how I feel about that, but I think it was the right decision. I have my close friends who, whether they write or not, are always there by my side. Maybe I don't tap into that resource enough because I'm afraid I'll be a pain. It's a fine line. But that's not the problem. This place was supposed to be welcoming to all writers and in the end, I felt as alone as when I started. It's been stifling my creativity--among other things--and if I want to move forward, I have surround myself with people and places that are conductive to my creativity and feeling good about myself. Drama and cliques are not it.

I'd thought of starting my own writing circle, either online or local, but that never works out. I don't have the time or focus to run a comm. (Been there, done that.) There was no local interest. Tried that already. Plus, trust in inherent in the system and that's very difficult to build.

So I am back to square one. Not necessarily a bad place to be. It's all about reframing myself and getting back on track.
Current Mood: contemplativecontemplative
anna_sg1: sg1 - sam/vala huganna_sg1 on October 8th, 2012 11:10 pm (UTC)
Getting back to square one worked wonders for me, even if it was daunting, but sometimes it's all you can do - start fresh. I know writing is very important to you so I really hope this helps you to get your inspiration! ♥
Meghan: squishpeach_megumi on October 9th, 2012 04:03 pm (UTC)
*hugs* Good luck, dear.
ferrous_wheelerferrous_wheeler on October 11th, 2012 11:50 am (UTC)
Sometimes starting from scratch helps to give a fresh perspective on a project.
I've wandered over from ff.net where I found your wing!fic a while back and love your writing (I posted as Samantha V.).
Best of luck with the re-start!
Working for the Mandroid: Guardian Angel (Sam and Dean)moonshayde on October 11th, 2012 04:14 pm (UTC)

And I do really want to finish that series. I haven't abandoned it. It's just things got crazy.

Good to know that a fresh start helps!